What The Fuck, Self?

When you pop an Advil or Tylenol or Codeine — whatever pain reliever is on your shelf, you are hoping it will make your pain go away.  The truth is, it doesnt.  The medicine simply tricks your brain into not feeling the pain.  But actually the pain is still there, trying to communicate with you,  lurking, soon to emerge again.  And then you pop another pill.

There are pivotal moments when we can see this same process happening in our emotional life.  Our misplaced methods of medicating ourself wear off and we wake up into a face-slapping reality. Sadness and anger have been trying to get our attention for a long, long time.  Its unclear why today is the day we get the point,  but Good-Morning, Sunshine.  It’s here.

“Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel…”

So before you reach for what ever hides the pain (drugs, food etc, or many people’s personal favorite: keeping yourself so busy you don’t have time to think) here’s the first question

“Is someone getting the best of you?”

And if so ask yourself,  “What The Fuck, Self?” What could possibly be the reason you are giving this up?  Maybe there was a reason in the past, maybe you didnt even know you were doing it, maybe you just dont know how to break free.  Whatever the reason, here’s the second question,

“Were you born to resist or be abused?”

Wait, dont even answer that.  It’s rhetorical.  And in case you didn’t know it let me spell it out for you – NO ONE WAS BORN TO BE ABUSED. And if you think perhaps you were, it’s…

“The hope that starts the broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess”

Start by telling yourself the truth, my friend, I’ll repeat it – NO ONE WAS BORN TO BE ABUSED.

I know what it feels like to forget that.  I know what it feels like to silence the pain.  But believe – it is entirely possible for ANYONE to find the strength to claim yourself and take your best back…

“I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse”

It’s ok to say it before you believe it.  It’s ok to believe it before you can say it.

“Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you”

Locate yours.

with love,

jrb

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“Best Of You”  (Foo Fighters, of course)

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh…
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love you’d die to heal
The hope that starts the broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh…
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